you're a mystery yourself

Sunday, November 29, 2009

9:31 AM

Something am not looking forward to.

It's been a week and i'm still not over it.
Going away in 2 days.
Been thinking of what we've planned to do once i'm back.
It'll be your first day and i was/suppose to be there with you.

When i saw you,i thought i've lost you.
It was scary as hell.
How i wish i could just stay and be here with you.
If anything were to happen,i'll never forgive myself.

I'm gonna miss yous.

&the beauty.

1:06 PM

The text.
Idk how to react.
I felt all the feelings i feared at once.
Was in shock.

There's so many things going through my mind.
So many questions.

I nidda be distracted with something.
Goodbye my almost lover.
Goodbye my hopeless dreams.

P.S: We shouldn't have met.Even if its just for an hour.

&the beauty.

11:42 PM

Taken from postsecret.blogspot

You're the only one
I talk to
Who really knows me
Tells me shows me
That it's enough
Sometimes
Just to be myself

I don't want nobody else
They don't understand
That I gave away my heart

Give me a reason to stay
Gotta get us back on track
Cause the worst thing is
Loving someone
Who doesn't love you back
I think you do
But I need you to say it

You see me as me.Not as who you wanted me to be.
You said it.But did you mean it?
I shouldn't have hoped.I let myself fall.

Okay i'm feeling super la-la right now.
-____-"

&the beauty.

11:33 AM

Unbelievably fun

All Smiles

Mak Bonda is also the birthday girl

We were gossiping all the way.NOKIA

I have so much to say to each and every one of you but when i held your hands,my mind goes blank.It really bothers me.stupid,i know.

You make me feel beautiful again.I've grown shorter with all my insecurities and what people say really does affect me.But things change when you come round.I'm growing back up and i'm not afraid to be myself.It's nice to know.:))

I watched too much movies that every little thing that happened or is happening to me gets a little bit scarier.I wanna wake up again.I have so many things to look forward to and i wanna do it without having anything bothering me.

Seattle Grace please.heh.

OH! And Happy Advance Birthday Noridayu Roslan. :))

&the beauty.

1:05 AM

Misunderstood.
Misjudged.

Things were kinda shitty for awhile.But is all good now.
As a matter of fact,its so much better than before.
I'm exhausted.I managed to pull myself through this week.
All thanks to the beautiful nights i had.

After 3 years we're still here.For each other.
I miss Alif Alwee Abdullah.

ps: I had your back.
*shame on you if you fool me once,shame on me if you fool me twice.*

&the beauty.

11:07 PM

Things was easier when its just us.

I wasn't there when you left.Some may think that it's nothing for me.
But the thing that they didn't know was you did meant a whole lot.
You made it possible for ALL to be there on the first day.
You made me feel like i actually am a part of it.You stood up for me.
Everytime i hear them talk,u'd come up to me and say they dun mean a thing.
I dun really believe you when it comes to that but you made it easier for me to ignore all the bad things.

I miss you.I really do.
I can still feel your presence around me sometimes.

You say everything will turn out all okay.
No,it doesn't.I dun need you to make me feel better.
I need your help in guiding me to be a better person.

Too often the thing i want most is the one thing i can't have.

&the beauty.

2:46 AM

Something i do not wanna deal with ever again.
This is one of those lala moments.
It has to stop cause it's slowly eating up my insides.
not literally of course.-_-

If you wanna be my friend,you're welcome to stay.
But if you have doubts,i'll say just leave and never come back.
You don't get to choose as and when you wanna come and leave EVERYTIME.
Once you're in,you're in.
If you decide to continue being this way,then so be it.
I'll never wanna know about you.

ps : There's no talking to you.
Its not like you gonna hear me out.
I know when not to take less than i deserve.

&the beauty.

12:52 AM

Turned to,called and meet only cause
you're in need.

We learnt that people have friends.
True.
So what happens to those left behind?
Are they suppose to just wait till THE FRIEND comes back cause they have noone at the time and go again after?

&the beauty.